Awful no good day.

I am woken at 6:30 this morning by my brother, who is calling to reconfirm that I am UNinvited from his wedding. After trying to get back to sleep for a few precious minutes, I decide to give up and focus my remaining energies on M., who is feeling ill and needs to go to the hospital. (Everything seems fine, for now. –wohali). Then I had to deal with sitting in a hospital waiting room for at least two hours, maybe more.

After all of that, I am here, stumbling blindly through my day, trying to make sense of it all when everyone else around me seems to be crashing down.

I will continue without him. I am strong, with or without the spineless, emotionally crippled, dependent weakling known as my brother. He can choose to follow me or exclude me, but he certainly can’t choose to undo the pain he’s caused me now.

14 thoughts on “Awful no good day.

  1. I’m not crashing down, am I? Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!! ;p ;p ;p

    You’re bro sucks ass! Have mine! He’s sucks less. I think. In the meantime I think I’ll go kick your weakling brother’s ass! I’m going to take one part of him and shove into another part of him!!! ;p He will regret the day he ever crossed anyone who’s a loved one of Mercy! He will cry for his Mommy and his Mommy will be tied up in the next room! He will….um ok that’s enough! ;p

    Whatever happens, you got me, and I promise not to crash too much! (I am not a computer after all!) ;p

  2. Are you saying I should “turn the other cheek” and love him anyway? Or that I can choose not to love him given that he’s being such an asshole to me?

  3. Oh that’s OK love — I know you’ll always be there for me. :) Your love is appreciated more than I can show you! NO SHOOTING! :P

  4. You went out of your way to show him how much it hurt… And he showed that he didn’t really care.

    That sucks. I hoped things’d work out well, Joan, but well, things are how they are.

    I’m sorry to hear it, but I know you’ll overcome it.

  5. Oof i’m sorry to hear that J – sometimes it’s harder when it’s family because with friends who fuck you around, you can cut them off so to speak and not necessarily revisit the issue the way we do with family. Or at least that’s what it’s like for me. He may still be your brother, but he’s still behaving like a dick.

    Men suck. =)

  6. I’m really sorry to hear that your brother is doing this. The situation is unfortunate and unfair. If you ever want to talk about it, I’m always here to lend you an ear. k

  7. What I basically wrote was agreeing with this passage you had written:

    “I decide to give up and focus my remaining energies on M.”

  8. Exactly! Bravo. Door’s open, he can return when he wants to. But I focus my energies elsewhere. :)

  9. Thanks for your kinds words, love. Some people don’t know what they’re missing, I guess.

  10. Well, when he decides to stop behaving like a dick, I’ll be here. My grandmother made me promise not to stop talking to him — and I never really threatened that anyway. I simply said that I’d be hurt for a long time to come, and that’s very true. I believe the onus is now on him to make it up to me.

    Funny, my parents and I think the same of each other. I guess that one is going to sit for a while unsolved, huh?

    And yes, interpersonal relationships with men DO suck. But I still have some as friends :P

  11. thanks sweetie, it really does mean a lot. I just can’t believe it’s come to this. And he really screwed up yesterday! I mean, can you imagine being wakened by that sort of phone call at 6:30 AM, cutting short sleep since you got to bed at 1AM or so? And then being grumpy the rest of the day, and having a stomachache?

    Oh, wait, you have cats. Maybe you can. :D

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