The feelings once fled to another world for a time,
Yet I should have realized that they would come back, for they were mine.
Memories of heartbreak seems to rule my world,
Always has since I was a small little girl.
There are nights that I awaken in tears and shivering inside,
Those memories are back, to haunt me, to make me want to run and hide.
I have tried so hard to push them deep into the recesses of my mind,
To search and hunt for happiness, but there was none that I could find.
All I have ever wanted in this world was to love and be loved,
To share happiness and joy that have only been dreamed of.
To be held, and to hold,
To be carefree and even somewhat bold.
Will those times for me ever come?, I wonder with a sigh,
Will I see and feel happiness, smile, and never ever cry?
For now I only hear the voices and the screams of the past,
And I wonder, will they always be here and forever last?
To know one night of total peace would be such splendor,
To know happiness and to be able to that happiness surrender.
Just once to forget about those horrible dreams,
And the sounds of those voices and screams.......